The Not All Pain Screams Trilogy
"Sometimes the deepest pain does not shout.
Sometimes it simply waits for us to listen."
The Story Behind the Work
I lost my partner. I raised my children alone through grief I didn't fully understand. I carried rage and shame alongside love, and for a long time I carried it all in silence — because that is what I believed men were supposed to do.
Writing became the place where I could finally be honest. These poems were written in the middle of the night, on school runs, in therapy waiting rooms, on long drives where the radio was on but the mind was somewhere else entirely.
They are not about performing strength. They are about what happens when the performance ends — and who you find yourself to be in the quiet that follows.
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The house
changes
when they sleep.
TV on.
Mobile in hand.
Lights dim.
Dishes done.
Except —
I sit
remembering.
I wake
on the sofa —
eyes
wet.
Evenings — Book One
The Not All Pain Screams Trilogy
Book One
Poems on Grief, Fatherhood, and Carrying On
The quiet aftermath of loss. A man learning to parent alone, to carry the weight, to breathe again. 116 poems across three collections — grief, fatherhood, and the slow return of warmth.
Coming SoonBook Two
Poems on Anxiety, Identity, and Learning to Be Known
The noise inside the mind. The masks worn for years. The extraordinary ordinary experience of finally letting someone see who you really are. 124 poems across three collections.
Coming SoonBook Three
Poems on Nature, Connection, and Finding Your Way Back
The zoom out. Nature, time, perspective, and the realisation that every person walking this earth is travelling beneath the same sky. 115 poems across three collections.
Coming SoonFrom the Trilogy
The School Form — Book One
Documents
for the school
to complete.
Names.
Addresses.
Contacts.
Until —
Mother's name.
An ache.
The pen
floats
hesitating.
An ordinary task
that suddenly
isn't.
White Heat — Book One
I wanted
to set the world
on fire.
Rage —
pure,
white-hot
rage.
She left me.
I know —
it wasn't her choice.
But a part of me,
ashamed,
felt
left behind.
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Why This Trilogy Exists
"Men do not write like this. Not publicly. Not honestly. Not about grief and shame and the weight of raising children through loss."
On the trilogy
"Every poem in these books was lived before it was written. That is what the reader will feel on every page."
The story behind the work
"Not all pain screams. Sometimes it whispers us back to life."
Not All Pain Screams — Book One